Yes, yes We are still on Project Baby (I know I sound like a broken record) Hurry Up and wait. M went back to RE for blood work /hormone checks and we wait for the Magic number and the magic call and then all the magic will happen.
During this down/ hurry up and wait period I tend to read and research and read again. There are Blogs a plenty about fertility and websites galore on female anatomy and the fertilization, implantation process. AMAZING ... I have looked at a bazillion diagrams of female fertility process.
It just amazes me that these tiny sperms swim so far well in IUI case its only a 4-6 inch swim but it takes them a while. My reading did not tell me how they know which fallopian tube to swim up. I suppose they maybe swim up both, I dunno but they do. I am also amazed that an egg is released from the ovary and just knows to float to the fallopian tube? See I said it was amazing.
We are-trying to stay calm .. and doing lots of visualizations oh and did I mention lots of reading. I cant stop !!!!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
LATE BLOG
eek ... sorry, I woke up at 5:30 AM for no apparent reason and had the song "Oh Sheila" and I was like WTF? I dunno either, today I am feeling totally off.. its so weird.
Anyhow, went to see RE on Wednesday and she did a ultrasound and measure M lining and follicles. Her lining is great and her follicle are at 20 something. Guess the acupuncture helped and the massage too ! We wait now for the RE to let us know when to trigger.
M and made a vision board . It petty cool we use it for inspiration positive thinking. This process has really brought us closer together in many ways. I am so thankful for her and appreciate what she brings to my life and thankful for her and my life in general although there could be some improvements like a decent job.
and now we just wait - the waiting parts in this baby project really sucks!
Anyhow, went to see RE on Wednesday and she did a ultrasound and measure M lining and follicles. Her lining is great and her follicle are at 20 something. Guess the acupuncture helped and the massage too ! We wait now for the RE to let us know when to trigger.
M and made a vision board . It petty cool we use it for inspiration positive thinking. This process has really brought us closer together in many ways. I am so thankful for her and appreciate what she brings to my life and thankful for her and my life in general although there could be some improvements like a decent job.
and now we just wait - the waiting parts in this baby project really sucks!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Not Alone
still hurry up and wait ... I wonder if we would feel the same way if we were actually "infertile" I mean I guess we have a case of Male infertility ...Obviously, but were not infertile.
We made new friends this past weekend New Gay Friends some with children who have already gone though this process and some still trying. We met a younger couple that is trying to conceive and it sadly comforting knowing that things were not easier for them because they were younger. It was very comforting knowing we are not alone in this process. It's comforting to know there are people that we now actually know .. er met that have tried more more than us and some who have tried less and some success and some unsuccessful. The bottom line is that we are all gay and going through the process-and we already know what a crazy process it is.
Camaraderie is a wonderful thing and though each of us had a different route in this process and there are never guarantees we love knowing that we are able to speak to real live people who live it or lived though it who are also willing to share. YAY for new friend!
We are still waiting for the follicles to get a little bit bigger but all of M's hormone levels are great and her lining looks good too. She did a session of acupuncture and said that was great she came home and literally looked stoned she was so relaxed and stressless. Her eyes were lil dopey and half open- who knew having tiny needles in you could make you feel that good but my wife like hooky mookey medicine teh chiropracter, massage, touch healing all that.
We are still working on it....but not alone and very thankful to be able to go through this process and meet amazing people!
We made new friends this past weekend New Gay Friends some with children who have already gone though this process and some still trying. We met a younger couple that is trying to conceive and it sadly comforting knowing that things were not easier for them because they were younger. It was very comforting knowing we are not alone in this process. It's comforting to know there are people that we now actually know .. er met that have tried more more than us and some who have tried less and some success and some unsuccessful. The bottom line is that we are all gay and going through the process-and we already know what a crazy process it is.
Camaraderie is a wonderful thing and though each of us had a different route in this process and there are never guarantees we love knowing that we are able to speak to real live people who live it or lived though it who are also willing to share. YAY for new friend!
We are still waiting for the follicles to get a little bit bigger but all of M's hormone levels are great and her lining looks good too. She did a session of acupuncture and said that was great she came home and literally looked stoned she was so relaxed and stressless. Her eyes were lil dopey and half open- who knew having tiny needles in you could make you feel that good but my wife like hooky mookey medicine teh chiropracter, massage, touch healing all that.
We are still working on it....but not alone and very thankful to be able to go through this process and meet amazing people!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
We're not infertile just GAY
I have bee reading lots of fertility and infertility blogs. Trying to find out if and what insurance will and will not cover . We are not really "infertile" ... No were just GAY... so the lack of sperm creates this infertile /fertile thing.
We go back to the Fertility Specialist today ... a ultrasound and blood work. I heard M tell her mom on the phone, "thank goodness the midget will be there" and I chuckle. There is a little person that is there on TUE/Thur and she is one of the very few ho can draw M's blood with out extra pokes and usually with out incident. We are very happy that she is there and mean no disrespect but THANK GOD for the MIDGET.
M finished her clomid and hopefully the follicles are getting bigger she started on a estrogen hormone last night..
again its the wait and see...
We go back to the Fertility Specialist today ... a ultrasound and blood work. I heard M tell her mom on the phone, "thank goodness the midget will be there" and I chuckle. There is a little person that is there on TUE/Thur and she is one of the very few ho can draw M's blood with out extra pokes and usually with out incident. We are very happy that she is there and mean no disrespect but THANK GOD for the MIDGET.
M finished her clomid and hopefully the follicles are getting bigger she started on a estrogen hormone last night..
again its the wait and see...
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
still waiting
This time change is killing me ... My goodness why do we have to do it I am having a way hard time adjusting. I know its only an hour but i am off like 3 hours somehow?
So all of of M's medications arrived safe and sound and the Pharmacy even gave us a discount ! YAY and THANK YOU Walgreen's Specialty Pharmacy.
We are really sad and a lil annoyed that the nurse we loves is no longer at this facility and the girl who took over her position just seems a lil young and a lil ditzy, but we kinda pros now so we know. We dont have to go back until Thursday ( i know this wait even though nothing is really going on and we are waiting for the follicles to get bigger just seems like a longer than normal wait time.
M will start the estrogen my poor wife all these hormones are causing her to break out like a high school girl. Its a lil fumy but hormones happen and so far she id occupied by doing our taxes so she is not overtly irritable (YET)
Anyhow go back on Thursday for a Ultrasound and blood work and then hopefully then they will schedule us for another and we will just monitor the growth and then do a trigger and eventually the insemination again.
I feel it in my bones this time and we pretty much act like M is already prego, changed our diet and look at adorable baby clothed and cribs .. So excited!
So all of of M's medications arrived safe and sound and the Pharmacy even gave us a discount ! YAY and THANK YOU Walgreen's Specialty Pharmacy.
We are really sad and a lil annoyed that the nurse we loves is no longer at this facility and the girl who took over her position just seems a lil young and a lil ditzy, but we kinda pros now so we know. We dont have to go back until Thursday ( i know this wait even though nothing is really going on and we are waiting for the follicles to get bigger just seems like a longer than normal wait time.
M will start the estrogen my poor wife all these hormones are causing her to break out like a high school girl. Its a lil fumy but hormones happen and so far she id occupied by doing our taxes so she is not overtly irritable (YET)
Anyhow go back on Thursday for a Ultrasound and blood work and then hopefully then they will schedule us for another and we will just monitor the growth and then do a trigger and eventually the insemination again.
I feel it in my bones this time and we pretty much act like M is already prego, changed our diet and look at adorable baby clothed and cribs .. So excited!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Here we go again!
Went to RE today. M Had a ultrasound Dr was able to visualize lots of eggs on each side but small. Got a scrip for Clomid will start that tonight. Have to go back on 18th for another ultrasound and blood work. Thank goodness they were able to get her blood in one try. Sadly, the nurse we really like there left .. bummer! Lots of other lesbian couples there today that was nice to see. So, here we go again YAY ! Trigger should arrive tomorrow and now that we Hurried up we have to wait! We feel good maybe better than in the beginning as we now know what to expect. On a side note it was snowing when we left the Dr. office ... and when we got home.
I noticed our sperm bank now offers a handful of donors who are willing to be known who have adult photos available and a full face video. I was thinking about looking and seeing if we should switch- I dunno if what he looks like matters and I like our donor and ***weirdness*** his birthday is soon and we believe we will be inseminating very close to his birthday. Odd I know ...
I noticed our sperm bank now offers a handful of donors who are willing to be known who have adult photos available and a full face video. I was thinking about looking and seeing if we should switch- I dunno if what he looks like matters and I like our donor and ***weirdness*** his birthday is soon and we believe we will be inseminating very close to his birthday. Odd I know ...
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Hurry ... WAIT!
We did an insemination and waited the dreaded 2 week wait. M went in for hormone test galore. They can't find her veins very well so she had 6 pokes and lots of fishing which hurts and now GNARLY bruised to show.
Unfortunately our IUI was unsuccessful. We hear this is common place for the first IUI and people who get it on first try are relatively lucky. Sadly, M was having morning sickness symptoms which were caused by the progesterone or the metformin so it was a little miss leading.
We are not as disappointed as most are when they get the call with negative results. We were kinda like ... ahh ok so this is how its going to be and well, we did not really want a scorpio baby anyhow ... I know, I know ... how can we say that!
The bottom line was it was not the right time and it was just not meant to be at that moment. We are hopeful and eager to go full force for round 2 and now we know what to expect so its not so big and scary and the wait is still dreaded but we will understand it more.
so Happy Baby dust to us and anyone else trying and we are thinking positive!
Unfortunately our IUI was unsuccessful. We hear this is common place for the first IUI and people who get it on first try are relatively lucky. Sadly, M was having morning sickness symptoms which were caused by the progesterone or the metformin so it was a little miss leading.
We are not as disappointed as most are when they get the call with negative results. We were kinda like ... ahh ok so this is how its going to be and well, we did not really want a scorpio baby anyhow ... I know, I know ... how can we say that!
The bottom line was it was not the right time and it was just not meant to be at that moment. We are hopeful and eager to go full force for round 2 and now we know what to expect so its not so big and scary and the wait is still dreaded but we will understand it more.
so Happy Baby dust to us and anyone else trying and we are thinking positive!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Sorry
SOrry for the late blog, I am totally sick and it really sucks and totally stressed
I have no idea where I got sick from. But my throat is killing me, at first I thought it was the Tequilla I was drinking the other night. I needed a mental vacation so I took refuge in a bottle of patron ... 5 shots later i was happily numbed. Hey, man dont knock it .. I rarely drink but i was so stressed out I figured I try. The housewives in OC drink that stuff like it's water and they are a quarter of me. I dont know how they do it !
Anyhow, Still stressed and now have a KILLER KILLER throat issue. I slept in which is unusual for me. Now I sound like a bad smoker, although sometimes my sick sexy voice comes out ! My chest is heavy and feel like one big almost dried booger, You know he feeling.
Anyhow My throat coat is brewed and waiting for me ... or my throat is waiting for it.
I have no idea where I got sick from. But my throat is killing me, at first I thought it was the Tequilla I was drinking the other night. I needed a mental vacation so I took refuge in a bottle of patron ... 5 shots later i was happily numbed. Hey, man dont knock it .. I rarely drink but i was so stressed out I figured I try. The housewives in OC drink that stuff like it's water and they are a quarter of me. I dont know how they do it !
Anyhow, Still stressed and now have a KILLER KILLER throat issue. I slept in which is unusual for me. Now I sound like a bad smoker, although sometimes my sick sexy voice comes out ! My chest is heavy and feel like one big almost dried booger, You know he feeling.
Anyhow My throat coat is brewed and waiting for me ... or my throat is waiting for it.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Roller Coaster
I have had a new outlook on the Project Baby thing.
Knowing that we are trying and having it be successful we are kinda puling all the stops. We changes what we are eating and basically eating like we are pregnant. No deli meats ( not that we ate them to begin with, no caffeine, chocolate and no white sugar,) Increased eating pineapple, bananas and fruit all around bromilad (sp) helps implantation supposedly.
M is still on some hormones she went for a level check yesterday. They had to stick her 6 times. She almost fainted and threw up. She says its because she has "BAD" veins. They collapse which is a common things phlebotomist encounter but I also think her veins are small and her blood pressure is real REAL low so the vacationer is too much pressure for her vein and well causes collapsing. They should just use a syringe this way they can monitor the suction. Anyhow, her progesterone levels have lowered. They were really high and now they are lower nothing to be concerned about they said they will monitor and it was not so low that she should double up on her progesteone. This new was really upsetting to M and well her whole experience (she did not want me to go cuz it was supposed t be a simple blood draw) She drinks water before she goes so she is hydrated.
ANyhow, the constant up and downs with these hormones I am supportive and been really good trying to do everything ... and well I get my head bitten off...
Trying to insert myself in this process but she does not think my questions are valid or legitimate and really its her body and her experience.. I just kinda get left out and that makes me feel bad.
Knowing that we are trying and having it be successful we are kinda puling all the stops. We changes what we are eating and basically eating like we are pregnant. No deli meats ( not that we ate them to begin with, no caffeine, chocolate and no white sugar,) Increased eating pineapple, bananas and fruit all around bromilad (sp) helps implantation supposedly.
M is still on some hormones she went for a level check yesterday. They had to stick her 6 times. She almost fainted and threw up. She says its because she has "BAD" veins. They collapse which is a common things phlebotomist encounter but I also think her veins are small and her blood pressure is real REAL low so the vacationer is too much pressure for her vein and well causes collapsing. They should just use a syringe this way they can monitor the suction. Anyhow, her progesterone levels have lowered. They were really high and now they are lower nothing to be concerned about they said they will monitor and it was not so low that she should double up on her progesteone. This new was really upsetting to M and well her whole experience (she did not want me to go cuz it was supposed t be a simple blood draw) She drinks water before she goes so she is hydrated.
ANyhow, the constant up and downs with these hormones I am supportive and been really good trying to do everything ... and well I get my head bitten off...
Trying to insert myself in this process but she does not think my questions are valid or legitimate and really its her body and her experience.. I just kinda get left out and that makes me feel bad.
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