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Yesterday was my Happy Birthday! It was great fun good food a ton of birthday messages on my Facebook and in box and cards in the mail. A deliciously wicked cake baked by my wife!

Now that my Birthday has come and gone we have my wife's POST OP visit. I am hoping everything is healing well and the Fertility doctor will say stop taking the provera
(a progesterone hormone that stops menstruation) and then she will start her cycle and get clomid and thus the INSEMINATIONS will begin.

I am little torn about this though. Ya see if we do insemination now and get pregnant then the baby will be born in 2010. This is good because with the surgery she just had and insurance we have met our deductible (we have a PPO) so this means that if said baby is born this year its birth will essentially be covered by insurance. Well, I really like the fact that we will not have to pay any additional fees. That being said I am frightened at the the fact of having a baby in NOV and DEC. Okay, calm down let me explain.

Gay families get to practically choose everything from donor characteristics. This process is a plan that is well thought out unlike heterosexual people. We have to think weather or not we want children and and then think how we will obtain this and who will be our donor and who will carry. So my thought is, that we have put all this thought in to having a child why cant we plan out when its born (We can) Well try to at least decide what month it will be born. My wife and I have a lil issue with Scorpios (the sign) and well My wife's b day is on or a day before or after Thanksgiving and from previous blog you can see her anxiety, hate and distaste. The next month is Dec and early December is great but Hanukkah can get in the way later is too close to Christmas and well I don't want another Holiday to interfere with my family (that must sound terrible) I just know the issues my wife has. Not to mention the Scorpio thing.

I dont know much about Astrology and signs .. it is a lesbian thing though a lot of women who are gay seem to have this Astrology thing going on .. My wife kinda has it.... like i said I dunno ... but i know what she tells me about Scorpios and I have seen her friend who are Scorpio and I know that I have a father and sister who are LEO's and have a hard time with them being an Aquarius. .. Okay I know this sounds ridiculous!!! I know ... but if we hold off the baby can be born in JAN in 2011 and have its own Birthday not under the pressure of another Holiday and but we would have to meet our deductible .

I know Crazy right !!! WHat can say I'm an over thinker!