Rollercoaster of Emotions

So We did our second IUI a few weeks ago and had the Beta test (its the blood test that tells you if you are prego or not) we were so sure it worked this time. We meditated, changed our diet, cut out soy (which is tough for us Vegheads) and M did acupuncture and massage galore. Our Beta on Friday revealed a Big Fat Negative. M was so so so BUMMED to the Max and well its a super emotional time for both of us.
Oddly, we always have a trip planned right after we have the results. I am not sure if that is a good or bad thing.

It was an unsuccessful one again.. and only our second try. We know better, we know that it takes 3-6 trys on average for a successful IUI. But we want it so so so bad not to mention the savings if it were to happen sooner than later would be nice.

So now we wait again for the cycle to continue or until we can't take it anymore or our money runs out...This is difficult for me because there is no definitive that says, ok now switch donors or now try this way or now stop trying. We are gonna keep trying !!!!

While we were in LA we stopped off at the sperm bank we are using and we begged them to let us pick up our Donor sperm. It saves us a little money on shipping (every bit counts) so we drove from CA to NV with our most precious Cargo. So fricken comical this experience is we are either balling our eyes out or ready to kill each other or laughing hysterically at Dinner for NO NO NO apparent reason or singing to our DONOR SPERM.. AFTERALL THIS JUST MAY BE 1/2 OUR KID!


Today M and I are Celebrating our 3 year Domestic Partnership so we are excited that we have this huge tank and are hoping it will have conception mojo !

Its a crazy ride for 2 moms trying !