Who knew!

I am very public about our trials and tribulations when it comes to Project Baby ! I am very vocal that we are 2 moms trying to conceive. I am so amazed when I tell people that we are trying to get pregnant and the process we have to go through. Then the person whom i am divulging this to usually a woman usually replies with her own struggles when she tried to have a baby. The majority of folks I am speaking to are straight and so they share their experience with me and it is SAD, but amazing that I have this camaraderie with them. Then I grasp what they are really saying ... the NO, shit your straight and have sperm at your disposal and it did not go as you planned look on my face! Who knew that straight people have just as much problems conceiving as us and they usually have all the mechanisms needed, full access to an unlimited amount of sperm. WHO KNEW!

I was discussing with my friend whom shared with me that she and her man were also trying and I was so delighted when she mentioned that she was thinking the same thing I was, which is that when we see a young teen that is pregnant we tend to think .. WHAT the .... she prolly did not even plan that and she prolly does not even whan it and here her and I are and we would practically do anything. I wont even write about the friends who are also trying and finally see success or say no we were not trying it just happened! They piss me off too but not in a bad pissed off why but a confused way.

Oddly, my friend and I are were a little envious of eachother prior to our marathon emailing. She was envious of us because she's thinking we have medical intervention so we are taking it down to the science of conception and I was thinking she has a live sperm donor who can donate at any time place and date and its free! Either way neither of us are pregnant yet but the comedy and tragedy in this Emotional Roller coaster is amazing and we both agreed Humbling !

I'm not a religious person and she may be more Godly than myself but she made a very valid point which was, "it is a miracle of God. not man, nor science can ensure it will happen." and well I am not sure about the miracle part but I know we have very little control even though we feel like we have to make a decision and choice about our process on a daily basis!

So, no matter if your are straight, gay or single and trying we all have our trials and tribulations and eventual success!

Happy Baby dust to you !