I have feelings

I am utterly annoyed! I know your saying NOT AGAIN ! Ya see.. I am Jewish though its not a religious thing for me its more of a cultural thing. None the less I am Jewish!

It gets my goat that my wife usually always (i need to choose my words wisely here) usually never wishes me a a Happy Hannukkah or gets me a Hannukkah card well not just Hannukkah but any Jewish holiday for that matter. I only observe and celebrate the High Holidays but those are the ones that mean the most to me! But I say Merry Christmas and I remember to get gifts and or cards and all that Santa stuff. I am also really bother because her Family (mom in particular) does the same thing. She has yet to wish me a Happy Hannukkah or any other Jewish Holiday. Surely to her my MIL its just another day. I will say she made me a nice Christmas Stocking with a Hannukah theme. Thats right its the only Blue and white Stocking in their mantel that has a menorah ans Star of David. The gesture was very nice, I am just sorry it had to be unveiled last year when we were going through a bunch of turmoil. BUT, as much as I appreciate it it is for Christmas.

Just as Christmas for me was once just another day but since I have been with my wife I celebrate with her and I make a conscious effort to wish her a Happy Easter, a Merry Christmas etc. I mean if I dont say Merry Christmas I'm an asshole right? If I dont get my wife a Christmas Present I am an asshole?

It just really bothers me that I(we) send her family Christmas cards and the like but most forget to reciprocate Hannukah wishes to me. Though friends send me Christmas Cards but I know its an over site and it bothers me but not as much.

My family remembers My wife's Birthday and Christmas and send her wishes, or buys her a gift. Yet I can't say the same for my wife's family. Yeah, it kinds hurts. I'll get a birthday gift once in a while if remembered. I'm not worried about the gifts its not about gifts its just about being acknowledged.

Now that I just griped I have to say that this year though prompted my wife did make me my Fav Hanukkah treat Sufganiyot its an Israeli jelly donuts. But, i just want her to one day do something like a surprise maybe. For instance, last year or the year before I went out bought a fake lil xmas tree decorated it with all blue n white balls and it was awesome and she was kinda surprised (she does not show much emotion its a family thing) but it was awesome or so I thought and my good neighbor friend even thought it was so adorable. I guess I am a hopeless romantic in this sense. I spent a lot of money on ornaments and the like but that not issue its the fact that I knew it would make her happy and I totally jive on making her happy.

I'm happy too but once in a while I would just like to be acknowledged. Hmm I an not sure if I am getting my point across its not just regular acknowledgment it Holiday Acknowledgments maybe .. I dunno, but what I do know is that it hurts me sometimes.