Near Death

...Oh crap i think to myself and SAY out loud through the window BABE! She looks at me with a scare in her eyes and a small smile one her face as the truck is skidding towards her. The truck was just inches away from hitting her car and nearly killing her. The huge white truck hits the tiny lil curb that separated the North Bound and South Bound traffic. He recovers and skids the opposite direction just missing her. It was raining and he made a turn and prolly skidded due to the rain. She looked at me right after he recovered and nearly missed her and she said .. I almost died, you almost watched me die.

This happened at 4:30 pm yesterday. My wife and I were taking back the rental car we used to travel back to Los Angeles. I was in the lane next to her. We had our windows down and we were at a red light talking. I was just telling her that she needs to get a new cell phone because she lost hers and I was driving and had a vision that god forbid something happened no one would be able to get a hold of her. Then the WHITE TRUCK started skidding straight for her.

We caught our breath and got over the shock of her almost being obliterated. As I continued my now extremely cautious drive to the rental place tons of th9ought were flooding my head. My heart was heavy and i began to think about what I would do or how I would feel. I was overcome with emotion.

What if I had watched my wife die? Sitting in a car next to hers and watching a truck take her out. What would I do. How would I carry on and that image of her and the accident itself would be ingrained in my head. Shit !

I picked her up at the rental place and she get in to my car and she said. "Oh my god you almost watched me die." it was in that moment that I realized that I would not be able to carry on with out her. It was that very second that I felt the most intense love for her that I ever had. It was that moment that I realized that watching your wife or anyone for that matter die so suddenly in front of your own eye must be the worse possible torture that life can throw at you.

Wow - This makes for a very depressing blog and I am not one for saying live each day like its your last and cherish all those around you and blah blah blah ... But holy crap ! I love my wife so... much so much and in that moment I realized I take her for granted sometimes I'm not the nicest and well all relationships have there issues but I now appreciate our relationship more and I appreciate her more.